Flowers my roommate got me (came home to them after a bad day at work!)// Board games during magic hour with our friends leaving town// Jameson + that bacon cocktail at Downbeat Diner // My roommates Anna + Annelise making diner for bible study// Magic Island last Sunday! // that time the mixer broke and we had to whip eggs by hand for the Tres Leches// the end product of all that whipping!//Another Korean Taco with a Gochujang Aoli!// New Roommate alert! I somehow managed to get another Latina to join this crazy crew :)

I haven’t been the greatest at updating CW in the past year. It’s kind of unfortunate because so many AMAZING things have transpired! I find it somewhat difficult to grasp that an entire year has gone by since I left the classroom. It truly feels like THAT was lifetimes ago. It’s also been a year since I moved into community! Looking back, this year has been a year of TRANSITIONS. I know that all of the changes are the healthy kind that serve to make room for better things. However, it’s been TOUGH. Luckily, I have been blessed with some really precious people + experiences! 

For the past few months, I have been working at Seed—a farm to table restaurant with a social justice mission. At Seed, I met Joseph (he works as a Line Cook there) and we hit it off pretty quickly. Soon, we got to talking about starting a business together. We have been meeting + brainstorming for a few months and things are really coming together.

Over the weekend we got together to experiment with making Korean Tacos. I love love love Korean food. Joseph is Korean + an amazing cook! We spent Saturday evening creating different variations of tacos loaded with Korean BBQ meats/ pickled side dishes and stuffing our face. It was GLORIOUS! I have always felt passionate about street food, and have been wanting that to be my first business venture. I have always daydreamed of popping up at farmer’s markets + events. We are very much in an experimental/ exploration stage but I think we might really be unto something.

Saturday evening sparked some really good things in me. I kinda realized: all this transitioning hasn’t been as smooth as I would’ve liked but my life is G. I finally don’t feel like a fish out of water. Teaching always made me feel that way. I was always daydreaming about starting something and doing other things. 

The other day I stumbled upon a poem by Mechthild of Madgeburg. (She was this medieval mystic who wrote eloquent poetry about her visions of God.) The line “a fish cannot drown in water, a bird does not fall in air” really struck a chord with me. I think that I am finally in that place where I am starting to do what I was “born to do.” This is both scary and exciting! <3

Found the Right Words Instagram Edition: I learned to speak English by paying really close attention to English pop lyrics. Today, my English is WAY better than my Spanish but I still pay really close attention to words in music. Whenever this song comes on in the car my mood is immediately transformed. #foundtherightwords #frankocean #thesweetlife #sleeplessinkaimuki

Found the Right Words Instagram Edition: I learned to speak English by paying really close attention to English pop lyrics. Today, my English is WAY better than my Spanish but I still pay really close attention to words in music. Whenever this song comes on in the car my mood is immediately transformed. #foundtherightwords #frankocean #thesweetlife #sleeplessinkaimuki

Found the Right Words No. 2: 
I have been thinking a lot about romance. This is in part because the slump experienced by married couples after they’ve been together for too long FREAKS ME OUT. Lately, I have been engaging in some pretty disheartening conversations with the coupled people in my world. I have gleaned that marriage is this REALLY sacrificial thing that demands EVERYTHING. That’s fine. I think I can manage that. However, it also seems like after the ‘I-Dos” excitement and adventure VANISH. Why?!


I want it to be different. I want to keep the excitement and the mystery ALIVE. Complacency is way too terrifying. I know that I am a romantic who probably spends a little too much time ideating. However, I firmly believe in romance. Excitement and adventure are absolutely necessary. I am going believe this even when bullshit lurks and the minutiae weighs me down. I wanted to declare this in a public forum (to the 10 people who read this blog&#8212;-love you!) because I am afraid that I will become one of them. Consider this my manifesto on adventurous love. Gertrude Stein had it right: romance IS everything.

Found the Right Words No. 2: 

I have been thinking a lot about romance. This is in part because the slump experienced by married couples after they’ve been together for too long FREAKS ME OUT. Lately, I have been engaging in some pretty disheartening conversations with the coupled people in my world. I have gleaned that marriage is this REALLY sacrificial thing that demands EVERYTHING. That’s fine. I think I can manage that. However, it also seems like after the ‘I-Dos” excitement and adventure VANISH. Why?!

I want it to be different. I want to keep the excitement and the mystery ALIVE. Complacency is way too terrifying. I know that I am a romantic who probably spends a little too much time ideating. However, I firmly believe in romance. Excitement and adventure are absolutely necessary. I am going believe this even when bullshit lurks and the minutiae weighs me down. I wanted to declare this in a public forum (to the 10 people who read this blog—-love you!) because I am afraid that I will become one of them. Consider this my manifesto on adventurous love. Gertrude Stein had it right: romance IS everything.

#foundtherightwords no. 1: 
“We started out sipping the water/ And now we try to swallow the wave/ And we try not to let those bastards get us down /We don’t worry anymore cause we know when the guff comes we get brave?After all, look around/It’s happening, it’s happening, it’s happening now”- Fiona Apple. 
So much has changed in the past few months. And I have to confess: All the transitioning has left me with a profound case of writer’s block. However, I have been devouring others people’s words LIKE CRAZY. In the midst of all the changes, I have been assembling a precious collection of short passages, song lyrics, and quotations that truly capture my experience. Maybe they will inspire you too. 
It seems that the life of the bona fide entrepreneur is riddled with uncertainty. Furthermore, I see that God keeps putting me in situations that DEMAND that I grow exponentially. This process is rough but strangely beautiful. Each obstacle is a wave that makes me more resilient to the bullshit. And when “the guff comes,&#8221; I am surrounded by amazing individuals who support me and pour into me in ways that simply blow my mind. All the uncertainty in the world is okay with me because I know that God has my back and I am surrounded by the people that I love. 

#foundtherightwords no. 1: 

“We started out sipping the water/ And now we try to swallow the wave/ And we try not to let those bastards get us down /We don’t worry anymore cause we know when the guff comes we get brave?After all, look around/It’s happening, it’s happening, it’s happening now”- Fiona Apple. 

So much has changed in the past few months. And I have to confess: All the transitioning has left me with a profound case of writer’s block. However, I have been devouring others people’s words LIKE CRAZY. In the midst of all the changes, I have been assembling a precious collection of short passages, song lyrics, and quotations that truly capture my experience. Maybe they will inspire you too. 

It seems that the life of the bona fide entrepreneur is riddled with uncertainty. Furthermore, I see that God keeps putting me in situations that DEMAND that I grow exponentially. This process is rough but strangely beautiful. Each obstacle is a wave that makes me more resilient to the bullshit. And when “the guff comes,” I am surrounded by amazing individuals who support me and pour into me in ways that simply blow my mind. All the uncertainty in the world is okay with me because I know that God has my back and I am surrounded by the people that I love. 

New Years Resolution No. 2: Cultivate strong relationships with women.

I met Trish by chance during my first week of work at Fresh Cafe. She sat at a picnic table with her dog for hours while I tried to sell a mountain of my boss’s belongings that had sat in storage for ages. In between assisting visitors as they perused through the assortment of items for sale, we engaged in light conversation. Soon, we were discussing more personal matters and discovered that we both share an interest in photography and in “living purposefully.” Before we parted ways, we exchanged contact information and agreed to embark on a photo excursion through town sometime in the near future. 

I live for encounters like the one with Trish because they just make me feel less alone in the world. Anaïs Nin once said:” Each friend represents a world in us, a world not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born.” My initial reaction is to sardonically dismiss this as the sort of cheese fit for “Thinking of You” cards in the greeting card aisle at the drugstore. But then it sinks in. I just can’t be nonchalant about how magnificently alive I feel when I am cultivating a friendship. And yet, as much as I enjoying sharing my life + witnessing other people’s experiences I still catch myself walling off and withdrawing when the going gets rough. 

These photographs sat on my computer for weeks without being looked at. This day was so full of joy and adventure, and God was SO present. I am publishing them now because I want to believe that having an open heart, being vulnerable, and letting other people love me is scary as shit but absolutely worth it. 

 

New Year&#8217;s Resolution: Spend more time caring for homeless people. Last week on Christmas Eve my roommates and I went out to the distribute small care packages to homeless folks in Aala Park. I was the happiest I have been in weeks. It made me realize that I want to spend more time out in the city loving on the people who live here. Honolulu has really become my home in the past year. This M83 lyric inspires me to get out there. The impact of these actions might be small, but I can feel it&#8217;s a step in the right direction. #love #newyear #reflecting #resolution

New Year’s Resolution: Spend more time caring for homeless people. Last week on Christmas Eve my roommates and I went out to the distribute small care packages to homeless folks in Aala Park. I was the happiest I have been in weeks. It made me realize that I want to spend more time out in the city loving on the people who live here. Honolulu has really become my home in the past year. This M83 lyric inspires me to get out there. The impact of these actions might be small, but I can feel it’s a step in the right direction. #love #newyear #reflecting #resolution

Today&#8217;s creation 😋👌 I have always loved drinking Peppermint Hot Chocolates&#8212;especially during  long and cold Decembers in NYC. The weather is da ream here but I still crave these when it rains. This drink is part of this month&#8217;s Eating with the Seasons dessert only menu 🎉🎄🎅. Crushed candy canes and whip cream make it 😍. #ewtshi #freshcafehi #supportyourlocalcafe #supportME #haha

Today’s creation 😋👌 I have always loved drinking Peppermint Hot Chocolates—especially during long and cold Decembers in NYC. The weather is da ream here but I still crave these when it rains. This drink is part of this month’s Eating with the Seasons dessert only menu 🎉🎄🎅. Crushed candy canes and whip cream make it 😍. #ewtshi #freshcafehi #supportyourlocalcafe #supportME #haha

Our amazing peppermint chocolate brownie drizzled with white chocolate and sprinkled with crushed candy canes. Last week this only existed in my daydreams. One conversation +visit to @fairycakes808 later and now it&#8217;s happening in real life at @freshcafehi! This month&#8217;s Eating with the Seasons menu is desserts only. Because I think it&#8217;s okay to indulge during the holidays, don&#8217;t you? 😋😊#ewtshi #freshcafehi #dowhatyoulove

Our amazing peppermint chocolate brownie drizzled with white chocolate and sprinkled with crushed candy canes. Last week this only existed in my daydreams. One conversation +visit to @fairycakes808 later and now it’s happening in real life at @freshcafehi! This month’s Eating with the Seasons menu is desserts only. Because I think it’s okay to indulge during the holidays, don’t you? 😋😊#ewtshi #freshcafehi #dowhatyoulove

I heart styling + photographing food for work! This month&#8217;s Eating with the Seasons menu is desserts only! #yum We created some fabulous treats like this mocha mint frappe. It will be on the @freshcafehi menu till the end of the month. 😊👌🎄🎉 #doingwhatilove #ewtshi #dessert #christmas

I heart styling + photographing food for work! This month’s Eating with the Seasons menu is desserts only! #yum We created some fabulous treats like this mocha mint frappe. It will be on the @freshcafehi menu till the end of the month. 😊👌🎄🎉 #doingwhatilove #ewtshi #dessert #christmas